I'm getting chapped lips

I have one more exam on Friday afternoon and then I'm done.

Done. That's exciting. And scary.

I leave for China in less than 10 days, and Katie leaves for Portland in less than a week.
I feel restless. I think. I'm not sure exactly what this feeling is. Premature sadness? Job anxiety?

I just looked at my grades and I got an A in Poetry. I didn't pick up my final project (really, we just turned in everything we ever did for that class as a final project) today, but I will tomorrow. When I had written my last two poems in that class, I almost felt like running to my professor and asking him what he thought immediately. But everyone knows I'm not going to grow up to be a poet. I may write a poem from time to time, but circumstances haven't lent themselves to me being a poet. Or an actor, I think.

I could be wrong, of course. Events may have been set into motion that I know nothing about.

I mean, really. I'm 21. What is that? That's nothing. There's on the order of about two things right now that I can count on in life. Everything else is still a variable.

Yet, at the same time, I feel so old. Almost like I'm ready to settle. Not just settle down as in get married/have kids and that business. Settle as in...settle. The comfort of a home that I know will be mine forever, a job that I will go to every day. I guess I'm not too much of traveling man after all.

Anyway, enough introspection. That stuff doesn't belong in my blog. Here's an obligatory S'n'S blurb: at the end of Woodscotch, I sat in a folding chair at the front of Connan. I was in a room filled with balloons and most of my friends from CMU. And there was this incredible sense of finality. These past three and a half years, I've given my life to CMU, to the Computer Science program, and perhaps most of all, to Scotch'n'Soda. And I couldn't be happier. There's almost a part of my now that wishes I had MCed or MEed for a show or two. A part that wishes I could operate a lighting board or draft a set plan. What's our mission statement? To provide opportunity. S'n'S has given me so much more.

Oh, and that includes NPP, too. It's all just been so much fun.

Now I want some ice cream. If I were in my apartment (the ice cavern this time of year), I'd probably want hot chocolate. Maybe I'll have both.